The pregnancy

‘There were very few checks during pregnancy’

Realising something was wrong

‘My waters broke and they were coloured’

Being told your baby has died

‘They said that I'd have to deliver the baby’

The time before giving birth

‘I think it matures you a bit’

The birth

‘Adrenaline pumping through my system is all I remember’

Spending time with your baby

‘I could have sat there all night holding him ’

Being back at home

‘You feel inferior’

Deciding about a postmortem

‘Every post-mortem is research’

The funeral

‘It was the first time we'd ever set foot in a graveyard.’

Relating to family and friends

‘Let’s just be open and honest’

Grieving

‘I wouldn't even know what it really means to grieve’

Remembering your baby

‘Wherever we go he’ll come with us’

Pregnancy after loss

‘It spoils you for life’

Insights and advice

‘I believe one day I’m going to see him again’