The pregnancy

‘I mean we didn't think anything of it.’

Realising something was wrong

‘She goes: ‘Oh, where’s the heartbeat?’

Being told your baby has died

‘I remember a sound coming out of me.’

The time before giving birth

‘This lady knows what we’re coming in for, why are we waiting so long?’

The birth

‘I don’t want anybody to ask me why am I going up there.’

Spending time with your baby

‘All I heard was babies crying all around me’

Being back at home

‘I’m here to get an outfit for my son who’s died’

Deciding about a postmortem

‘We agreed for something called a visual post-mortem’

The funeral

‘That’s not a day I ever want to do again’

Relating to family and friends

‘I just wanted someone to listen to me’


‘Me and Shazia have always worked as a team’

Remembering your baby

‘What mother don’t know where her baby is?’

Pregnancy after loss

‘When he was born he didn't cry’

Insights and advice

‘I took to my Instagram account to start sharing things’