Shauna* (37) lives in the South East of England.  Her relationship with Micah’s father broke down during her pregnancy. Micah is her second child. Shauna’s eldest son was seven years old when Micah was stillborn at 37 weeks and five days on July 24th 2015.

*Because she works in maternity care, Shauna is a pseudonym.

‘I came in with my baby and I’m going out with nothing’

Amma, consultant obstetrician and gynaecologist

Amma is a consultant obstetrician and gynaecologist. She qualified in 1986 and her professional area of interest is maternal medical complications in pregnancy. Based in London, she has two children.

‘Stillbirth has always unfortunately been part of obstetrics’

Jane, bereavement midwife

Jane has been a midwife for 17 years. For the last 14 years she has worked as a specialist bereavement midwife in an inner city, London hospital. She has two children.

‘I learnt everything I know from the parents’

Katy, community midwife

Katy has been a midwife in the North of England for 10 years. For the last seven years she has worked as a community midwife in a diverse, multicultural, urban community. At the time of interview she was 27 weeks pregnant with her first child.

‘Limit yourself to saying I'm sorry for your loss’

Eileen, junior registrar

Eileen is a junior registrar in obstetrics and gynaecology. She’d been a junior registrar for about 18 months at the time of interview. Her training has included placements in a number of busy inner city, London hospitals.

‘How we feel about stillbirth is not really discussed’

Shazia and Omar

Shazia (36) and Omar (37) live in Surrey. Their first child Mohammed was stillborn in May 2010 at 27 weeks gestation. 18 months later their second child, a daughter named Zara, was born. Since then they have gone on to have two more daughters: Haya born in 2014 and Sila in 2016.

‘I think that experience has made me a better person’


Jess (29) lives in Oxfordshire with her wife, Nat (29). The couple met at school and married in 2014. Their first child, Leo Phoenix, who was conceived through IVF, was stillborn on 17th January 2016 at 37 weeks and 4 days of pregnancy. At the time of interview Jess was in the first trimester of her subsequent pregnancy.

‘Just because you’ve lost a baby you are still a mother’

Jeeger and Disha

Jeeger (29) and Disha (30) met in Jamnagar, India in 2010. They married in 2011 and Disha became pregnant in September 2015. At the anomaly scan at 21 weeks the couple were told of a problem with the blood flow to their baby, which meant that he was small for gestational age. Aditya was stillborn in February 2016 at 24 weeks and six days.

‘There are people that have gone through it’

Marjorie and Alex

Alex (78) and Marjorie (76) live in Greater Manchester and met through work in 1960. Their first child Alexis was stillborn in 1963. They went on to have three more children: Jane in 1965, Jill 1969, and Amy in 1979.

‘I blamed myself then’

Rabia and David

Rabia (31) and David (35) met at a Muslim Arts Convention in London. They married in 2008. Six years later they were expecting their first child. The pregnancy was ‘perfectly normal’ and they planned a home birth. After a long labour Rabia noticed meconium in her waters so they went to hospital. Jannah was stillborn on the 17th March at 41 weeks of pregnancy.

‘I looked at every little part of her between her toes and everything’